Yesterday was a rough writing day for me.
So far this entire process has been pretty great! Sure there were a few moments in drafting it all out that I was a little
But overall things were pretty:
Yesterday though, seven chapters into my revisions, I started to feel it.
That creepy little fiend called self doubt.
I started looking at my manuscript thinking,
“This thing sucks.”
“No one will ever want to read this.”
“I am wasting my time.”
“Everyone probably just thinks I’m a dumb housewife with a stupid hobby.”
“I’m not good enough.”
“I’m delusional to think I could write a good book.”
That, coupled with the fact I still can’t find another literary agency internship, just had me feeling all:
This whole process is frightening for me on so many levels because this is what I’ve always wanted to do with my life. If I suck at it, who am I? If I fail at it, I will have to completely change the way I view myself and my dreams. Talk about a worldview shift.
So what can I do to battle self-doubt?
Don’t give up.
Push through my insecurity and keep pushing back.
I don’t want to be blindly confidant, but I want to be grounded in courage.
Because even if I doubt myself at times and I’m scared to fail at something I love so much, the only way to get to the other side of this process is to: