Yesterday was a rough writing day for me.
So far this entire process has been pretty great! Sure there were a few moments in drafting it all out that I was a little
But overall things were pretty:
Yesterday though, seven chapters into my revisions, I started to feel it.
That creepy little fiend called self doubt.
I started looking at my manuscript thinking,
“This thing sucks.”
“No one will ever want to read this.”
“I am wasting my time.”
“Everyone probably just thinks I’m a dumb housewife with a stupid hobby.”
“I’m not good enough.”
“I’m delusional to think I could write a good book.”
That, coupled with the fact I still can’t find another literary agency internship, just had me feeling all:
This whole process is frightening for me on so many levels because this is what I’ve always wanted to do with my life. If I suck at it, who am I? If I fail at it, I will have to completely change the way I view myself and my dreams. Talk about a worldview shift.
So what can I do to battle self-doubt?
Don’t give up.
Push through my insecurity and keep pushing back.
I don’t want to be blindly confidant, but I want to be grounded in courage.
Because even if I doubt myself at times and I’m scared to fail at something I love so much, the only way to get to the other side of this process is to:
2 Replies to “Struggling with Writer’s Doubt”
Yes, when life beats the crap out of me, I keep on writing. Sometimes I edit a bit, but mostly I write. (I should probably edit more, I guess…)
this is a great post. It’s like you’re reading my mind. Thanks so much for letting me know there are other out there who are going thru writer’s doubt. I’ll share this on facebook.