Struggling with Writer’s Doubt

Yesterday was a rough writing day for me.

So far this entire process has been pretty great! Sure there were a few moments in drafting it all out that I was a little

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But overall things were pretty:

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Yesterday though, seven chapters into my revisions, I started to feel it.

That creepy little fiend called self doubt.

I started looking at my manuscript thinking,

“This thing sucks.”

“No one will ever want to read this.”

“I am wasting my time.”

“Everyone probably just thinks I’m a dumb housewife with a stupid hobby.”

“I’m not good enough.”

“I’m delusional to think I could write a good book.”

“I suck.”

That, coupled with the fact I still can’t find another literary agency internship, just had me feeling all:

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This whole process is frightening for me on so many levels because this is what I’ve always wanted to do with my life. If I suck at it, who am I? If I fail at it, I will have to completely change the way I view myself and my dreams. Talk about a worldview shift.

So what can I do to battle self-doubt?

KEEP WRITING.

Don’t give up.

Push through my insecurity and keep pushing back.

I don’t want to be blindly confidant, but I want to be grounded in courage.

Because even if I doubt myself at times and I’m scared to fail at something I love so much, the only way to get to the other side of this process is to:

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